Whatever Happened To Me?

‘Me’ is an idea held in the mind, a conglomeration of adopted concepts and traumas that consciousness believes it is, and which clouds pure perception. This is our guiding darkness. 🙂 Our guiding light, however, is that which sees all these comings and goings in the mind.

So, what happened to ‘me’? Self usually appears when we’re confronted with other people, and the old traumas arise. When we become familiar with this process, the guiding light turns on – the clarity of consciousness. On observation, self disappears. 😀

It is through meditation, analysis and putting the three poisons of desire, aversion and ignorance to the test, that realisation occurs. Every instant is a test – a procedure intended to establish the quality, performance, or reliability of something. 

This is taking the Buddha’s advice, ‘Test it for yourself’, to heart.

The word ‘test’ is derived from the Latin testum, which means a small earthen pot. In the past, metal mixtures were tried out by melting them in a special type of earthen container to see whether some purified metal is left.

While we are testing, the ‘me’ is taken out of the picture; that observation comes from pure consciousness. Any conclusion is a reflection of the level of each individual’s practice. 

In the moment of testing, there is no ‘me’ as there is just pure observation.
We don’t have to make consciousness pure; it’s already pure.