What Is “Emptiness Of Awareness”?
It’s the next step up from “awareness of emptiness”.
Logically, we can arrive at awareness of emptiness; emptiness means unadulterated. But the experience of emptiness is beyond logic and description. We need a glimpse that will ‘pull us through’.
Awareness is normally concerned with events, both outer and inner.
Through meditation, awareness becomes aware of itself.
Through deeper meditation, awareness find nothing to get hold of; it’s empty.
Finally, awareness unites with emptiness.
A glimpse of emptiness may be painful. Why? We realise how imprisoned we have become, by thoughts, concepts, fixations and emotions. They are the walls to our prison. Drop these and we (awareness) are free. The more we try to experience emptiness, the thicker the walls become. Sounds zen-y 😉 !
I still get caught up in the awareness of emptiness and how I am supposed to ‘be’, and feel guilty for it. This guilt comes from a feeling that I should be ritualistic like other students, but my temperament is to think laterally which irritates vertical thinkers; our temperament is something we have to live with – we’re not vegetables! We need to trust that whatever appears within empty awareness is merely playing itself out, exhausting karma. There is no need to ‘better’ ourselves.
Of course, we will get urges, and we can still have fun. It’s just a matter of not fixating, allowing inspiration to manifest in spontaneous joy. In empty awareness, anything is allowed to manifest; confidence arises from not taking it seriously. It’s the humour that dissolves seeming reality.
You don’t have to believe anything you read. Just practise and meditate on the Buddha’s teachings…and find a authentic teacher who can empathise.