I Finally Forgive Myself
I recognised that, as long as I stayed in a spiritual centre, there would be a sense of guilt and dissatisfaction: this was because of being surrounded by ‘jobsworths’.
Jobsworth: A person in authority (esp. a minor official) who insists on adhering to rules and regulations or bureaucratic procedures even at the expense of common sense.
I’ve done, said and thought some daft things in the past, imitating elements in our culture (or adopted culture) that pass on this daft behaviour from one individual to another. So, I’m not alone in doing, saying and thinking daft things. Have you ever met anyone who hasn’t? We are loaded down with ‘rules’ that become ‘laws’ that become our life, and we end up paying with our life.
The recognition of absurdity is the experience that leads to realisation.
It’s all very well talking about living ‘in the moment now’, but doing so is difficult because we drag around a whole load of daft assumptions – and I’m including so-called spiritual assumptions.
We grow up and adopt the ideas around us as if they’re normal, but when we question those very assumptions, we become an outsider.
I forgive myself for being a fool
and for being fooled.
I forgive the fools
who are trying to fool me
as they haven’t yet recognised the absurdity
that leads to realisation.
When I was young, I didn’t know what to think, so I followed the crowd. That just lead to daftness. All the while, I knew that I knew something, but didn’t know what that knowing was.
Forgiveness is good for the heart; it’s an end to anger and resentment.