Worry is a mixture of hope and fear: we either hope something will happen and fear that it won’t, or fear something will happen and hope that it won’t. This is a human’s lot – there is always something to worry about. But it needn’t be so.
We get carried away by those two poisons, desire and aversion. A year ago, I nearly died on a sweet, and haven’t eaten one since. In the moment it was calm panic: I had to relax and resist breathing in, but use the last breath in the lungs to expel the sweet…or die! 🙂 Now, when I desire a sweet, I fear choking again…driving along when a sweet suddenly gets stuck in your wind pipe is no joke! The worry came afterwards.
Worry is fear, causing anxiety and stress. We are all concerned about our future, because we do not know what will happen. Speculation only brings tension to the gut, heart or head: this has an effect on the subtle body, which in turn has an effect on the mind, bringing about fatigue and an inability to sleep. It is not necessary, but understandable.
Worry is fear. Fear is aversion. Aversion is one of the three main poisons in our minds. These three neurotic states – aversion, desire and ignorance – are the mud that surrounds our Buddha nature. Buddha nature is our pure wakeful state of being.
Aversion, desire and ignorance are the universal laws of attraction, repulsion and inertia.
It is most important to realise and understand that the present moment was created by our past. If we do not change our attitude of re-acting, the future will be the same as now. This is so important to get straight in our minds, otherwise situations will remain at the same level of intensity.
In Buddhism this is called our karmic debt. The debt we have to repay our own minds. If you are a non-practitioner, then life can certainly be hell…one hell after another, as we keep on re…acting! And the stress levels go up for us and those around us. Put it this way: life isn’t going to get better, as we are constantly creating more karmic debt.
A practitioner understands this cycle of causes and effects, and faces all situations with one taste…by not re..acting. In not re…acting, no karma is created, and therefore no causes to create future conditions.
We may have to face some trauma, and just accept it. If there is something we can do to bring about a balance, all well and good. This is how we learn and evolve – by experiencing. It’s all in our own hands, and we cannot dodge it.
The less we react, the simpler life is. The less we get distracted. The less desire we have. The less fear. All because of less ignore-ance. Put it this way: we definitely don’t want to make a bad situation worse, do we? 😉
Explanation on where we go wrong
The three mind poisons – aversion, desire and ignorance – correspond to our three innate wisdom qualities of emptiness, awareness and compassion.
Desire = Empty essence
Aversion = Awareness
The qualities of emptiness, awareness and compassion have to be in balance.
When awareness forgets empty essence,
obscuring emptiness with concepts.
A conceptual “I” is created,
giving rise to duality: an “I” and “other”.
Awareness starts judging,
and therefore aversions emerge.
The natural compassion
that arises as the union of emptiness and awareness is forgotten.
There is now ignorance of our true nature,
and that of others,
and so we lose compassion.
When we forget, we worry,
while trying to hold our confusion together.