The Moment Of Indifference, Before Indifference Sets In
Before anything is recognised, there is a very subtle moment of pureperception, of pureconsciousness in which no judgement takes place. This is the wisdom of one taste – indifference – which does not alter our pure inner state. It is the spontaneous moment of now. It’s like stepping through a doorway … opening a page … seeing someone’s reaction … the view is merely taken in. No judgement occurs – just the joy of seeing, of being alive.
When we miss this moment, we quickly move into memory and judgement, where we either react or become vacant.
Spiritual practice is catching that moment of pure experience, which is extremely subtle. That is the reality of what we are; the life force. A milli-moment later, judgement sets in and we become animated, ignoring that first instant of stillness and inner peace: we have become indifferent to our true nature. This ordinary indifference is, in fact, a unconscious decision that we previously made consciously when we decided to ignore certain aspects of our life and adopt others.
There are therefore two aspects to indifference; one is a momentary suspension within clarity, while the other is a darkness that can last a lifetime.
Indifference, from an absolute point of view, means that, whatever happens, we know it makes no difference to the viewer: it is neither good nor bad, and so we don’t contaminate the situation further.
This does not mean that we are indifferent to others’ suffering. Depending on our level of understanding, we will endeavour to realise the cause of that suffering, and start the healing process.