I Can’t Find Consciousness!
Are you saying that you are not conscious?
Of course not.
Are you saying you are not conscious of your thoughts?
Of course not.
Consciousness is naturally what we are, first and foremost. We don’t need years of practice to see this. An ‘I’ is merely a designation, something that consciousness anchors on to. Before ‘I’ see, there is just seeing, isn’t there? That is consciousness! It cannot be found as it is the seeing itself; this can only be realised. Consciousness is seeing. Seeing is a piece of cake – it’s immediate.
It takes time to become unstuck to the ideas we hold that obscure this immediate consciousness. Maintaining our obsessions and fixations is what causes us dissatisfaction because this constantly creates opposites.
Our ideas are not the ultimate truth. It is that which sees these ideas that is the ultimate truth, and that is the clarity of consciousness. Tulku Urgyen called it, “spontaneous presence”. This is the most important aspect in our lives – to realise this one point. If we do not understand our original truth, then nothing will ever be right.
This bring us on to relating through behaviour and conduct. There are two aspects to relating:
One is where we are – unconsciously – only relating to our thoughts that we mistakenly believe to be our reality, and which control our behaviour, opinions, and dissatisfactions.
The other aspect is conscious relating, which is real communication of generosity and so forth. This relating is an expression of realisation, when we relate through empathetic kindness. It is challenging, but makes life worthwhile and, incidentally, increases our intelligence. Conscious relating is being a good friend, creating a genuine, safe atmosphere for real communication.
We merely have to look at the world and our reactions to see that we live within confusion which is maintained by confusion.
In truth, our original reality – spontaneous consciousness – is never confused; it just sees. Just seeing, we can recognise the consequences of actions and reactions, and so be prepared. In this way, consciousness is practical, as it can discern what is harmful and what is beneficial (this isn’t the same as pre-judging, where we are using our bias and prejudice).
When we either over-react or ignore our reality of pure consciousness, we become part of collective confusion. If, however, we can look at all possibilities, there are no surprises.
If we cannot find consciousness,
then where are we?
Whatever we think,
consciousness is always present.